americans to think that your mind immediately goes to a place of, there's a robber, he has a gun, the lights are not on, the curtain is drawn, he's going to shoot through the window, my brother-in-law took the gun under his bed and aimed it in the direction of the banging. luckily my sister was able to peak through the curtain and see it was her brother-in-law and she yelled to stop fire. that sense of paranoia is always there, you're in a heightened sense of, you have to be alert all the time, if you hear a sound outside, in america, thank goodness, we're blessed to live here, you think, it's a bird, it's a squirrel. there growing up, when i was a kid, if i woke up in the middle of the night, hearing a banging on the window, my mind immediately went to, there is a robber outside. >> so however implausible it may seem, the oscar pistorius defense, to many people who grew up in johannesburg, and other parts of south africa, it's not as implausible as in america or other places.